Kevin and I are fighting. BAD. Lots of yelling, mostly on his part. It’s heartbreaking. I think I have cried more these last few days then I have in years.

I know this is a bump in the road in our marriage…and we will get over this hump eventually. It may not happen over night, but I know there will be a change. At this point we are living as “roommates.” This is not how a marriage is supposed to be. It is not supposed to be filled with anger and yelling. We have to work on our marriage, and get it back to where it was. 

Hoping things with get better soon! :(

2 days away, yes just 2 days! I am as prepared as I can be. I don’t expect to win the competition, I am competing against myself. I have an idea of how I want to execute the WOD’s. The “win” will be that I accomplished my goal to get out of my comfort zone. 

I am nervous and excited! Hubby is staying home,  but thankfully I have lots of friends either competing or coming to cheer me on. 

Please send some good vibes my way :)

In other fitness related news: I am challenging myself to run 50 miles for the month of May. I have set this goal a few times since last year and never reached it. I am determined to get it done this month!

I decided to do a Paleo challenge for the month of April. The result? I lost 6 lbs! The more important fact is that I am feeling better and not having stomach issues. I will continue eating 80/20 Paleo and see where it takes me. 

I did it! I have moved outside of my comfort zone….I signed up for my 1st crossfit competition! As nervous as I am, I am really excited. There are about 8 girls from my gym signed up.

May 4th, the madness begins at 8am. In an effort to prepare myself, I began practicing some of the WOD’s this morning at Open Gym :) I have a month to practice and get myself ready. 

My goal is to finish strong, and know that I gave my best.

I have decided to stay at my current crossfit gym. Last week I checked out CFB, as much as I liked it there, I can’t afford their monthly membership. As I mentioned before, I love my gym, the people I work out with, but some of the instruction is lacking. I will use open gym as a time to work on my form and technique. 

Yesterday I PR’d my clean!! 105# for 1 rep max :) I remember last year at this time thinking I was going to die doing 55# for a 3 rep max. Improvements are good. 

I decided to do an April food challenge. For 30 days I will give paleo a try. it’s 30 days, I CAN do 30 days. I have  never tried paleo, but know several people who have been successful with that lifestyle. I know there needs to be a change in my eating habits and this might be the jump start I need. Yesterday being the first day of the challenge, went smoothly. Pre-planning will be the key to my success. I have the support of my family and friends. I am eager to see how this month goes for me, as I really struggle with crab and sweet cravings. If any of my fellow tumblrs have recipes or tips they want to share, I would love to hear them!

I have been doing crossfit for a year and 3 months, and after much consideration I will be checking out a new crossfit box today. I love crossfit, and the people I work out with but the instruction is lacking. I often get frustrated when I am told I am not doing the movement correctly, but the coaches make no effort to help me correct my form. 

This is not personal, it’s business. I am paying a lot of money per month to do crossfit…I want to get the bets possible instruction. 

Today at 3:30 I will  be going to CFB. This facility is run by a former NHL hockey player. We will be doing a 1 on 1 baseline workout today. It will be interesting to see how I do. 

I am not sure what the outcome will be, but I want to give myself the chance to try another box. Maybe it will be better, maybe it wont, but I wont know until I give it a try….

Keeping my fingers crossed there will be a happy outcome.

It feels like an eternity since I last posted! I have slid down hill, I know my eating habits have been horrible, and I have not really run, thus WEIGHT GAIN! Who would have thought????? I have not completely fallen off the wagon….I am still doing cross-fit 4-5x a week and hiking with Team in Training.

I feel like it’s now or never, get my shit together, or continue down this slope which makes me unhappy. I can’t eat all the garbage I am eating and see progress with my body.

As a side not, I do not need dessert every night of the week! That nonsense needs to stop immediately.

Here is what needs to happen:

Food Journal

Push myself harder at crossfit

Start running again

Be accountable for the things I am doing to my body

STOP MAKING EXCUSES!!!!!!!!!!

I decided to bring my puppy Dot into work with me at the Alzheimer and Dementia center with me today. We were expecting 22 people, each person in a different stage of their disease.

I had NO idea the reaction I was going to get, but it brought tears to my eyes. All 22 people got to pet, and get kisses from Dot.

Some of our ladies began crying with happiness. The joy that came over their faces was incredible. I was able to hear stories about their life with animals growing up, and the dogs they had later in life.

Today was the first day every single person in our center smiled, I even heard giggles as they played with Dot.

It melted my heart. Several of the ladies claimed Dot as their own, saying ” I love my puppy!”

My boss and I decided that since today’s experience was so positive that every Tuesday I would bring Dot to work with me. He would like her to be our “therapy” dog and bring happiness to the folks in our center.

The wag of this puppy’s tail, her little snorts, and kisses made the day perfect for some of those people who are lonely and sad and just needed a reason to smile

I feel like this past week has just slipped away from me, how is it Monday again already? This week has been so busy that my days are combining together.

Sunday night after we got Dot, Kevin’s mom called to tell us that Auntie (Kevin’s great Aunt) was in the hospital. The doctors expected her to live 24-48 hours. She was able to hang on until Thursday night and passed peacefully in the hospital. She was 89 years young, and incredibly funny! I will miss her stories and smile. The funeral will be on Friday morning.

 Dot is a great addition to our family! Ralph, Denny and Beckham are all getting used to her. At 2.5 lbs she terrifies them, it’s really funny to watch. My boss has asked me to bring her in at some point soon. I think the oldies but goodies would love her. I love the idea and will probably bring her into work in the near future. Who doesn’t love puppies??

I am sitting at work all alone. Due to the weather we had to keep our facility closed. I decided to come in to take care of some stuff. It has been really nice and quiet in here. It’s amazing what I can get done sometimes. I have spent the last 3 hours getting end of the month billing, calendars and newsletters taken care of. I want all end of month stuff to be done prior to Friday. I will be leaving early Friday morning for Auntie’s funeral. I don’t want my co-workers scrambling to get the packets we send home to the families. I will put them all together this afternoon before class so they are ready to be send home on February 1st.

Speaking of class, I am crossing my fingers that my professor let’s us out early tonight. I have come down with a nasty cold. I want to spend some quality time in my bed with a heating blanket :)